4 hours of sleep...

Slept at 1.30am, woke up at 5.30am. Can't get to sleep. My mind full of Hubby now. Since when i started to miss him so much??? Since when i started to love him so much till i can't breathe??? Since when he appeared in my dreams for so many times???

Is all started with the rejection onwards...our story was a beautiful story though started was kinda sad for him cause i kept telling him we can only be good friends. At that point of time is a NO NO to me, cause we still with our ex partner.

Danny is a perfect life long partner to me. Who i'll want to think of marriage. Last time, i always tell people give me 5 years cause i don't want to tie down by my partner's family plus i'm still young. If it's only Danny, anytime will do...(Planning goes on between us).

Am listening to the "bai bai" CD. One of the CD "Da Bei Zhou" that i like was spolit cause never play for abt 2 years. Need to get one excatly the same soon. Curently listen to another similar one. My heart can't stable down, don't know why. Been very long never have this kind of feeling already.

Now i felt relax abit after listening. Don't see me like this...i can follow the song and sing. Once, i cab back few months back, a taxi driver was impressed by me of singing along when he played the "bai bai" disc. He told me not many young girls know how to sing so i told him my family very "bai bai" de. He smile & chat with me quite awhile.

Danny is the reason that makes me have the confident in believing to pray & go temple more often. Thank you, dear!

There's a few things in my mind. One is Hubby! Can't stop thinking of him. Second, all those sms that reminds me... Hubby, sorry if you were to ask me to stop thinking. I can't! Cause is like a battle for me to fight against with her. I know how much we are unseperated, how much we can't afford to lose each other, how much we cherish each other. That's why the fear is there.

Next, actually hubby you had guess correct while in your car last night. I was holding you while you are driving and you suddenly asked me: What am i thinking??? For that moment: I was kinda shocked till i don't know how to reply you so i told you nothing! Cause, i never expected that you knew that i was thinking something in my mind.

Vice Versa again! We got the strong feel knowing what each other is thinking. This is one of the point that i can never expect my partner to know me so well.

Was quite affected when i met Kevin. Mentioned a bit of "him" & saw Kevin was kinda angry & sad plus his reaction and his eyes, not normal. Cause not only i lost hope on him, many people do.

I received lots of sms, msn message or even meet up with some of them.(Kiehl's boys) Thanks for so supportive & for those who know the real story behind. Knowing i should move on in life rather than seeing a no future with...they are very happy for me cause i had already find my true love.

Thank you hubby for making one of my wish come true. I always wanting to have a chalet with my partnet which i requested long ago but never come true. You are the one who make my wish come true. Cause i wanna spent time with my partner and to relax together after long years of working so hard. This is something which no one can plan for me except you. Just you & me!

Thank you for that Bintan chalet for my advance birthday. 5 days 4 nights, hmm...(Are you thinking what i'm thinking???)

We've 2 rooms. See whether my brother and his girlfriend can make it a not if not never mind lor...just leave it. I wanna cook for you to eat, that is for sure! I wanna make breakfast for you knowing you miss my breakfast at Marina Barrage. Till now, you still remember!

I know what to cook, all in my mind already! Probaly, we'll dine out for our dinner. As for breakfast & lunch, leave it to me. Knowing you love to eat & always eat outside foods. Cook everyday for you to eat, not a problem.

Next Sat, steamboat at my house & mum gonna fried the "zha rou bing" which you mention. How nice of my mum, i can't imagine now cause of you she make effort to "jing xin jing li" to do everything for you. Cause you'd win their heart by taking care of their daughter well and to dote on her. Xin ku Le, Bao bei!

Now whenever i speak on the phone using English language with my friend, she'll asked: Isit Danny??? Knowing you want to drive me to Johor, kept reminding me to check my passport expiry date. Knowing we gonna go on a holiday to bangkok, she'll ask when huh???

Never see her so concern about my stuffs before, 1st time!

All thanks to Hubby, Kudos!

My gosh! Everything also you & everyday sure ask about you. Hey, i jealous want hor...my mum so concern about you than me. Unfair lei!~Nah~ i should be happy that my family can click with you so well. I'm very relieve, seriously!

One of the point that i always wish for is that my partner can come my house to bond with my family. Guess, only you did! Jia you, bao bei! I'll jia you as well...Guess we have too many common character, thinking, family basics also the same...that's why we can get along so well.

Move it, baby!

Luvb, Luvb you!