Went North Point today to have breakfast with Mother Nancy! Starbucks with her. Stayed at the body shop for another 3 hours... total 4 hours. Chatted with Mother Nancy & Lucy a lot. They have been asking me about my life.
I hardly stayed in the shop for so long if i never work. This time, the feeling is back again! Christmas layout is out. I know they gonna be busy. Lucky is that, there's a new part timer who speaks like me which Nancy mentioned to me. She always reminds Nancy of me. Guess her age is below 20s...
I'm relieved!!! At least there's someone reminds them of me. I started to miss North Point staffs & enjoyed every single moment working with them. Cause they never fail to bring me the joy & warmth.
Reached home at 1.30pm. Searching for e-comerce notes. Found! Took a nap at 4.20pm. Woke up at 5.15pm. Quicly preapred & goes school. Thought that there'll be a good lecturer this time. Was kinda disappointed! Same old stuffs, same shit!
Went off at 8.35pm to meet up with Hubby for dinner. Home sweet home then. Mind was flushing through many things. Can't really forcus this time. Parents went to lawyer firm to sign one more paper...don't know what is it about. Guess is about the house. Dad gonna go for a check up tomorrow at SGH. Gugu was over worried for me that giving me STRESS! Exams is coming round the corner that i need to start my revision starting from tomorrow onwards.
Things are still in my mind that making me so tired. I need some air to breathe!!! At this time, i feel like viewing the sea to makes me sleep better...sometimes i wish that i won't want to be awake cause in life i'm too tiring to handle the family. Especially people do not appreciated at all...
I hardly stayed in the shop for so long if i never work. This time, the feeling is back again! Christmas layout is out. I know they gonna be busy. Lucky is that, there's a new part timer who speaks like me which Nancy mentioned to me. She always reminds Nancy of me. Guess her age is below 20s...
I'm relieved!!! At least there's someone reminds them of me. I started to miss North Point staffs & enjoyed every single moment working with them. Cause they never fail to bring me the joy & warmth.
Reached home at 1.30pm. Searching for e-comerce notes. Found! Took a nap at 4.20pm. Woke up at 5.15pm. Quicly preapred & goes school. Thought that there'll be a good lecturer this time. Was kinda disappointed! Same old stuffs, same shit!
Went off at 8.35pm to meet up with Hubby for dinner. Home sweet home then. Mind was flushing through many things. Can't really forcus this time. Parents went to lawyer firm to sign one more paper...don't know what is it about. Guess is about the house. Dad gonna go for a check up tomorrow at SGH. Gugu was over worried for me that giving me STRESS! Exams is coming round the corner that i need to start my revision starting from tomorrow onwards.
Things are still in my mind that making me so tired. I need some air to breathe!!! At this time, i feel like viewing the sea to makes me sleep better...sometimes i wish that i won't want to be awake cause in life i'm too tiring to handle the family. Especially people do not appreciated at all...
Baby...sometimes in life, we need to learn to say "NO" to people around us. I am not asking you to totally bo-chap or dun care. I just feel that you are shouldering too many and too much burden over your shoulders.
ReplyDeleteThere are certain things beyond your control especially if you are not kept in the loop (i.e. your house matters). Just focus on taking good care of your health and your studies. Leave the rest of the worries aside, we will just "cross the bridge together" when the time comes.
Haiz...I am pretty concern about your Dad's health too; do advise him to go see doctor if he is not well or rest more at home. He is quite stubborn, but don't let this deter you from constantly reminding him. Sometimes old folks need to be treated and pampered like kids too mah. If things doesn't improve your way, then I will probably try to talk to him during my next few visits to your home. Like I had mentioned to you, I am always open to bringing him go see doctor or theraphy if nobody at home is "free"? Okay?....Your problem is also my problem; I will not let you suffer alone in silence. :)
Many at times, I am also too tired with my own fair share of "shit", which I do not have immediate solutions to them. Thats why sometimes I am in deep thoughts and not able to share or pin-point what is troubling me. Seek your understanding and patience on this part....sometimes I also dunno what is troubling me also; this could be a disease in me that I think and worry too much bah?
Like I had shared with you that you are too kind hearted and helpful to many people around you; and as a result many of them exploit on this weakness of yours and take you for granted. I appreciate your beliefs in helping as much will be good for oneself and to our love ones. Be selective in helping those who are in need of your help (e.g. parents, 3rd uncle, gugu, your darling Charlene & partner, project group mates who were there for you in times of need...etc). You get what I mean? These are the people that are desrving of your attention & time and definitely will be appreciative of your effort! For the rest of the "people"....dun tired yourself helping bah.
In every ocean, there is always a silver lining; and after each stormy sea, there will be a peaceful sea. So don't worry too much on what had happened or is happening....cos everything will work out well one way or the other. I will always be there for you 24hrs, anywhere and anytime. Just call my name and I will be there.....(hehehe...sound like a song hor?) *Wink Wink" wor!
Cheer Up Baby! :)
Hubby, i thank you for your concern & understand where you come from. Iget what you mean...
ReplyDeleteI remembered when we got together, you sms me a message though it was just a concern message before that, i till remembered. You said: At this point of time, i should relax myself rather than pushing myself too hard...
That's why when we got together, i'm williang to put things aside just for you. Spenting time with you so that both of us can relax ourself whenever we are together.
Love the sentence by you: "Cross the bridge together". Yes, every single problem & to overcome with solution.
Thank you hubby for being so concern of my dad. Besides you are the most important man in my life, next he's the one. So i can't let him suffered in anytime. Cause i want him to make it through life as well as our wedding dinner one fine day.
As i shared with you what's my dad wish to me. Hopefully i can fufil his wish. Too stubborn, till at times i will lose my temper. My whole family memebers all very stubborn one.
He sprained his leg again near the door...today gonna check up of his legs...i told him that you wanna bring him to doctor but you know lah old folks are like that..wait till serious occurs then they know.
Guess you do not know: For everytime i see my dad, i will think of you when you are not with me. For everytime i see you, i will think of him. There's certain things you both treat your love ones the same. I love the both of you that gave me the feeling of hanging on in life!
Okay! Thanks baby! At times, you see me very quiet in your car cause i knew you are in deep thoughts or thinking of something. In order not to irritates your mood, i tell myself to be very quiet.
I know you are not used to my quietness cause i will laugh, joke & talk a lot. But sometimes, bo bian. Cause i don't wanna spoilt your mood. The moment i sense/feel you are not right, i will keep very quiet. That is to understand you, cause i know you need some air and space! Sorry baby!
Wah list down the names ar...??? How come your name not inside??? And must plus one more wor...my bestie, Yue Ting! I know lah, etc...i can see just joking with you. Sad lei, your name not inside. Must list down as you are the most important man to me!
~Woo~ your last paragraph really warms my heart when i read this post. Though i can't get to see the sea last night as i wish to but you mentioned as if i saw the sea before i get to sleep. Thank you!
24 hours - "Are you thinking what i'm thinking???" ~Wahaha~ Luvb, Luvb! "Just call my name", is a hip hop song! Reminds you of me wanting to dance in your car, right??? * HUGS*